If this is you and your first thought is
BUT I would never CHOOSE to feel like this, or
BUT there are so many other factors involved in the my day-to-day existence, let me again tell you, YOU are indeed the CREATOR of all you see and feel!
If this is you, I encourage you to take the question, “Am I the creator of my life?” to prayer, meditation, your journal or any other practice of introspection and connection to Source you might have.
Then listen. Notice if you get and answer, or not….
If you’re on board with the statement “I am responsible for the creation of my own reality,” then read on.
If we are indeed the creators (or co-creators if you’d like) of our reality, then we all play a role in creating EVERYTHING we see happening in our world. A butterfly can flap its wings and the movement of air, however micro, will be felt on the other side of the planet. A pebble tossed in the ocean will create a nano ripple until it reaches the furthest shore. Your thoughts, actions and feelings create the same affect on our planet.
So the question of mental illness has been a hot topic recently with the mass shootings on school campuses all over the country for the last decade or so. I am always boggled by the sheer surprise and awe that people experience after one of these incidents, when innocents (specifically women and children) are subjected to horrific crimes throughout the world without much notice on a daily basis. But I understand, when it’s closer to home, the impact is felt stronger for most and as an intuitive empathy and highly sensitive person, I have grown up feeling these horrors to a more extreme degree than others.
Many assess these killers as being mentally unstable or sociopath and psychotic. I tend to agree and I wonder how is it that we’ve let ourselves get so out of control.
You may wonder why I say “ourselves.” Well, remember we are all a piece of the puzzle.
You are me and I am you. This includes the great poets, justice seekers, artists, peacemakers and saints of our time but it also includes the narcissists, sociopaths and psychos and mass killers!
Why Leslie, would you equate us with these people who have down such horrific crimes.
Let me be clear, I am not only equating you (and myself) to “them” but also those involved in exploding the Twin Towers, those who deny basic rights and freedoms to human beings all over the world, those who participate in the sex trafficking and crimes of women and children and those who create terror and havoc for innocents in worn torn countries every day on this planet!
If you have ever:
*had a violent thought directed towards your children or family member or co-worker
*lashed out at a family member and injured or even destroyed a relationship because of your actions (however justified you may feel)
*ignored, denied or dismissed the feelings, love or help of anyone around you
*sat idle by while a minor injustice happened in your community or place of work
*had thoughts (usually attached to emotions) about using your power or status to control, manipulate or create submission in those you “serve”
* chosen to remain comfortable in your life circumstances when you have had a “knowing” inside your self/soul that things need to change, but instead make a choice to remain stagnant, complacent and disregarding of the very breath that is there to co-pilot your existence (anyone ever hear of “blasphemy of the Holy Spirit?”…the only “unforgivable” sin?)
Well that last one is explicitly what the “good News” writers are referring to. Ignoring the movement of the Holy Spirit, the breath of the possibility for change and creation with in your own body!
If you can say yes to any one of these, you too are the face of terror and “mental illness” on this planet!
So why do I even take the time to write this?
To make you feel like sh&t?
To shove your weaknesses down your throat and taste it’s bitterness?
To hurt you, to slander you, to make you feel helpless?
Not at all.
I simple write this to bring awareness to your (and my) responsibility and power to create a more loving and peaceful world!
So what can you do (this week preferably)?
Watch your thoughts.
Pick just one thought (there will be plenty).
When one that is violent, heartless, careless, cruel, condemning, demeaning (and these can be thoughts about yourself as well) comes into your awareness…
Close your eyes.
Take a deep breath.
DON’T deny it, squash it, or push it down because it is uncomfortable.
Allow yourself to feel it in your body and name the emotion that comes to the surface…. anger, sadness, judgment, apathy, numbness.
Acknowledge it. “I see you anger.”
And then release it. In our family, we call these “yuckies” and we like to move our bodies to release the yuckies into the ground and ask Mother Earth to recycle it for something more useful.
Use your own intuition and personality to create something that works for you.
If you need help, email me and I am happy to be of service without judgment or blame.
I am committed to creating world peace one soul at a time so if this resonates with you and you need support, know you have a friend.